Matt Bear

bigbear04 @ 2005-12-08T18:42:00

2005-12-08T23:50:13Z

Got this from Ashley. I thought it was cool, so i'm gonna do it.

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:: Primus

Are you female or male:: "Mr. Krinkle"
Describe yourself:: "Lacquer Head"
How do some people feel about you:: "Golden Boy"
How do you feel about yourself:: "My Name Is Mud"
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: "Wynona's Big Brown Beaver"
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: "Over The Falls"
Describe where you want to be:: "Kalamazoo"
Describe what you want to be:: "Electric Uncle Sam"
Describe how you live:: "Anti-Pop"
Describe how you love:: "Fisticuffs"
Share a few words of wisdom:: "Shake Hands With Beef"

bigbear04 @ 2005-11-12T22:44:00

2005-11-13T03:51:35Z

This is my last post. Because of someone who couldnt keep their hands on their own stuff. You know who you are, if you're reading this. Don't worry, I know enough about you and what you do as well. But stop going through my things. You wouldn't like it if I went through yours. I'll keep this between you and me, as long as you don't mention anything to anyone about anything. Just keep your mouth shut, and we'll both forget it. Hopefully sooner than later. If any word gets out about anything, you'll regret it. Just stick to what you know and don't get into anything of mine without asking me ever again. I mean it. Or secrets will leak. Both ways.

In other news, there's no news. Other than being presently engulfed with recent feelings of rage, contempt, disgust, distrust, and disappointment, everything's great. If you wanna know more about my life, gimme a call or something. If you know me, you know how to get in contact with me.

Later..

H0KAY

2005-10-25T13:40:34Z

Moving on...

Two down, one to stay. At least I hope.

I bought the Smash cd by the Offspring, because i've wanted it for a long time. It's a kickass cd. Everyone should own it. So they know what Nitro means. Here's some lyrics from that cd, which sort of personify my life.

The Offspring - Nitro (Youth Energy)

Our generation sees the world
not the same as before
We might as well just throw it all
and live like there's no tomorrow
there's no tomorrow
We are the ones
who are living under the gun, everyday
You might be gone before you know
so live like there's no tomorrow
ain't gonna waste this life
there's no tomorrow - you ain't gonna live it for me
believe it
The official view of the world has changed
in a whole new way
Live fast cause if you don't take it
you'll never make it
So if you understand me
and if you feel the same
Then you will know what nitro means
you'll live like there's no tomorrow - ain't gonna waste this life
there's no tomorrow - you're not gonna live it for me
there's no tomorrow

The Offspring - SMASH

Head over heels I've fit in before.
Now I don't want to do it no more.
I've held it all in with blood on my face.
Built it up man so bad you can taste.
I don't slag no one, I don't even judge.
Don't give a shit cause I'm not gonna budge.
I just want to be who I want to be.
Guess that's hard for others to see.

I'm not a trendy asshole.
I do what I want.
I do what I feel like.
I'm not a stranded asshole.
I don't give a fuck if it's good enough for you.
'cause i am alive.

Smash is the way you feel all alone.
Like an outcast you're out on your own.
Smash is the way you deal with your life.
Like an outcast you're smashing your strife.
Head over heals I've fit in before.
Now I don't want to do it no more.
I just want to be who I want to be.
Guess that's hard for others to see.

I'm not a trendy ass hole.
Do what I wan't do what I feel like.
I'm not a stranded ass hole.
Don't give a fuck if it's good enough for you.
'cause I am alive.

head over heels I've fit in before.
now I don't wanna do it no more.
just wanna be who I wanna be.
'guess that's hard for others to see.

I'm not a trendy ass hole.
do what i want do what I feel like.
I'm not a stranded ass hole.
don't give a fuck if it's good enough for you.
'cause I am alive!
I am alive!
I am alive!

The Offspring - Not The One

I'm not the one who made the world what it is today
I'm not the one who caused the problems started long ago
But now I deal with all the consequences that troubles our times
I carry on and never once have even questioned why

(yeah) I'm innocent
But the weight of the world is on my shoulders
(yeah) I'm innocent
But thet battles started are far from over

We're not the ones who leave the homeless in the streets at night
We're not the ones who've kept minorities and women down
Still we grow and then the problems they become our own
We carry on without even realizing why

(yeah) We're innocent
But the weight of the world is on our shoulders
(yeah) We're innocent
But thet battles started are far from over

We're not the ones whose pollution blackened our skies
And ruined our streams
We're not the ones who made the nuclear bombs
That threaten our lives
Wer'e not the ones who let the children starve in faraway lands
We're not the ones who made the streets unsafe to walk at night

And even if we try and not become so overwhelmed
And if we make some contribution to the plight we see
Still our descendants will inherit our mistakes of today
They'll suffer just the same as we and never wonder why

OK those are good.

In other news...

Not much is happening. Still failing classes and not paying attention as usual. Such is life. I'm going up to CMU this weekend for Halloween parties and getting smashed, because I don't want to think any more.

Then again, I don't know...I've never known.

bigbear04 @ 2005-10-18T22:47:00

2005-10-19T02:51:40Z

Maggie. Stop asking me. Because I won't tell you. You'll find out eventually. But seriously, shut the fuck up. It really bugs me.

On other news...I'm gettin better at CS|Source, but not that great.

I have to do stuff.

I don't want to work tomorrow.

Life is full of joy that is never achieved. But i'm the lucky one and I've captured it. And it's because of you. Call me soon because I need to talk to you. Then again I always do. <3

Leave a comment...

SUPER UPDATE TIME

2005-10-18T02:49:56Z

So, I'm gonna fail life. So what, it doesn't matter. I just want it to end, sooner. Sigh.

Such is the depressed pathetic life of me. But I must keep my head up because you are here and it makes life livable. Compliments help me on my way and someday it will all work out. I'll be making TENS OF THOUSANDS of dollars a year working at McDonald's so I can support my 15-child family. I love the future. And sex.

Yeah.

Coheed and Cambria - Once Upon Your Dead Body:

"If hello could only drop its "O"
And it stayed in the front door's way
Of your home, would you live there still?
Could that make you everything I hate?
Wait...

Do you remember why you did it? (No, I don't)
Do you remember why she left?

No, I hope you die right now,
Will you drink my chemical?

Is there price to burn this paradise?
Where you left all parts that hurt to mend
If I don't stay awake
Will she come here again?
For my wish of only one last kiss (you know)

Do you remember why you did it? (No, I don't)
Do you remember why she left?
(I guess you did what you thought would be right)"

No, I hope you die right now,
Will you drink my chemical?
And If you cry out loud,
It'll only make me feel too good

Once upon your, once upon your
Once upon your dead body
(I hope you die right now, it would only make me feel too good)"

That isn't for you. This is for you. ^_^

Alien Ant Farm - These Days

"Making all these waves and I wonder where the days went.
I sit and think of you, I hope the feeling's mutual.
I'm seeing all you gave and,
It somehow don't seem even close to what I'd do.
To break in two seems natural.

These days are great, there's work to do.
Would you like to work with me, I'd love to work you.
These days are great and so are you.
I think it's something positive, and negative too.

[OMIT]
Playing all these games and, I wonder who's to blame it.
I sit and think it's you, I'm sure the feelings mutual.
We're growing cold. Its getting old.
We should have known it's over.
[OMIT]

These days are great, there's work to do.
Would you like to work with me, I'd love to work you.
These days are great and so are you.
I think it's something positive, and negative too.

We'll be a real team
We'll be a real team

These days are great, there's work to do.
Would you like to work with me, I'd love to work you.
These days are great and so are you.
I think it's something positive, and negative too.

These days are great, there's work to do.
Would you like to work with me, I'd love to work you.
These days are great and so are you.

I told you"

Ahh. I love that song. As well as pie. Mmm pie.

OK BEDTIME. Too much thinking, not enough sexing. w00t!

Whowaooaoooo!

bigbear04 @ 2005-10-16T23:05:00

2005-10-17T03:16:06Z

Alrighty.

So I played AirSoft today with Doty, Matt, Randy, and Jason. It kicked ass and I got a few good welts on my face. Thanks Doty...Jackass.

So anyway, then I came home, fixed grandma's computer, then played Counter-Strike and ate pizza. The pizza was glorius.

Then I posted my homework for Theater, that boring-as-fuck-pointless-waste-of-time-class, and i'm here now.

Ahh. The sound of silence/keys tapping. I wish it were the sound of nothing, and a sight of blackness. I want to get the fuck off this planet as soon as I can without committing suicide. If someone wants to have everything I have, i'll write my will right now if you come forward and say you'll get me off this stinking rotting piece of rock that's swirling aimlessly in space. I'm gonna die anyway, I just want it to end as soon as possible. Maybe i'll just smoke myself to death.

If you wanna help the destruction, call my cell or leave a comment.

On a happier note, I'm ecstatic. I miss you. Call me, you know who you are. <3 Or at least an e-mail!

Forgot One...

2005-10-14T20:20:10Z

The last and best one, most fitting, for today. <3

The Cult - Fire Woman

Fire woman, yeah

Shake, shake, shake, shake it, yeah

Wound up, can't sleep, can't do anything right, little honey
Oh, since i set my eyes on you
I tell you the truth
Ttttttwisting like a flame in a slow dance, baby
You're driving me crazy
Come on, little honey
Come on now

Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire, yeah
Smoke on the horizon, well
Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire
Oh, smokestack lightning
Smokestack lightning

Well, shake it up, you're to blame, got me swaying little honey
My heart's a ball of burning flame
Oh, yes it is
Twisting like a cat on a hot tin shack
Lord, have mercy
Come on little sister
Come on and shake it

Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire, yeah
Smoke on the horizon, well
Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire
Oh, smokestack lightning
Smokestack lightning, baby

I was thinking what I’ve been missing
I'll tell you truthfully, well
She's coming close now
Oh, I can feel her
She's getting close to me
And I never, yeah

Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire, yeah
Smoke on the horizon, well
Fire
Smoke, she is a rising
Fire
Oh, smokestack lightning
Smokestack lightning
Jajajajaja

Burning out
And shake it baby
Gotta have money

Stand down in front of me
Say, stand down in front of me
Say, stand down in front of me, yeah

Fire woman, you're to blame
Fire woman, you're to blame
Fire woman, you're to blame
Fire woman, you're to blame

More Songs Because I Can

2005-10-14T20:03:39Z

Nevermore - Deconstruction

My perfect reflection swims
through the drowning pool. The sky is gone.
My world is in deconstruction

The fallen that dreams suicide
Takes the needle, instead of the gun
The victim who self crucifies can't realize
Christ is a weapon that chisels at our lives
Deconstruction
The martyr takes his aim and wounds the holy man
And on the eighth day God made the art of war
And laughing planned the end

Who will tend the garden when the snake swallows the light?
Who will eat the decay when the worms have lost their sight?
Who will rape the weak when there's nothing left to gain?
Who will till the soil of these barren black remains?

Deconstruction, deconstruction

Our world is in deconstruction

Nevermore - Believe in Nothing

Into a strange new world,
Into the after all, your tears,
Might find you've fallen too far
Take another look,
Take another ride
Can't we make them leave the hate behind

And I still believe in nothing
Will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?

Into the empty storm,
Into the formless loss of hope,
Where we can forget the game
And I still believe in nothing
Will we ever see the cure for our sorrow?

Nothing is sacred when no one is saved
Nothing's forever so count your days
Nothing is final and no one is real
Pray for tomorrow and find your empty still

Nothing is sacred when no one is saved
Nothing's forever so count your days
Nothing is final and no one is real
Pray for tomorrow and find your empty still

Nothing!

Nevermore - Narcosynthesis

hypnotize me,mesmerize me
drain the color from my eyes
patronize me,energize me
change the world,internalize
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
alienate me,learn to hate me
crucify your ideals the flesh is the swine
we are the last ones and we’re bleeding
for an unseen god

turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul

victimize me,vilify me
vilipend and amend the sins you condign
you are nothing and you speak for
all that never was

Oasis - Supersonic

I need to be myself
I can't be no one else
I'm feeling supersonic
Give me gin and tonic
You can have it all but how much do you want it?
You make me laugh
Give me your autograph
Can I ride with you in your B.M.W ?
You can sail with me in my yellow submarine

You need to find out
'Cos no one's gonna tell you what I'm on about
You need to find a way for what you want to say
But before tomorrow

'Cos my friend said he'd take you home
He sits in a corner all alone
He lives under a waterfall
No body can see him
No body can ever hear him call
No body can ever hear him call

You need to be yourself
You can't be no one else
I know a girl called Elsa
She's into Alka Seltzer
She sniffs it through a cane on a supersonic train
She made me laugh
I got her autograph
She done it with a doctor on a helicopter
She's sniffin in her tissue
Sellin' the Big Issue

She needs to find out
'Cos no one's gonna tell you what I'm on about
She needs to find a way for what she wants to say
But before tomorrow

'Cos my friend said he'd take you home
He sits in a corner all alone
He lives under a waterfall
No body can see him

No body can ever hear him call

That's all...I think.

Join Me In Death

2005-10-14T19:49:26Z

Passenger - In Reverse

This is the life i got to live
This is the time that I can give
The efforts that I make
Are just so that you won't escape

Feels like I'm falling
Like this would never ever change
I just keep stumbling
I am the fool in your charade

Sleep is an overrated thing
Something to do when I know I win
Let me know when its time to go
I have a lot of things to show

New Order - Blue Monday

How does it feel to treat me like you do?
When you've laid your hands upon me
And told me who you are
I thought I was mistaken
I thought I heard your words
Tell me, how do I feel
Tell me now, How do I feel

Those who came before me
Lived through their vocations
From the past until completion
They'll turn away no more
And I still find it so hard
To say what I need to say
But I'm quite sure that you'll tell me
Just how I should feel today

I see a ship in the harbor
I can and shall obey
But if it wasn't for your misfortune
I'd be a heavenly person today
And I thought I was mistaken
And I thought I heard you speak
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now, how should I feel

Now I stand here waiting...
I thought I told you to leave me
While I walked down to the beach
Tell me how does it feel
When your heart grows cold

HIM - Wings of a Butterfly

Heaven ablaze in our eyes
we're standing still in time
the blood on our hands is the wine
we offer as sacrifice

Come on and show
them your love
rip out the wings of a butterfly
for your soul
my love
rip out the wings of a butterfly
for your soul

This endless mercy mile
we're crawling side by side
with hell freezing over in our eyes
gods kneel before our crime!

Come on and show
them your love
rip out the wings of a butterfly
for your soul
my love
rip out the wings of a butterfly
for your soul
rip out the wings of a butterfly
don’t let go
rip out the wings of a butterfly
for you soul

Hm....I dunno.

Read the lyrics, they're good.

Not much to post, just tired as hell.

Leave somethin.

bigbear04 @ 2005-10-13T20:30:00

2005-10-14T00:33:24Z

Hm, Stratford rocked.

Maggie sandwiches rule!

:D

Donkeyface, post your pictures asap!

TIred!

2005-10-08T03:47:07Z

Aite. So. Here's a shortened update cuz im tired and i wanna sleepy.

I lost my birth certificate.
I lost my credit card bill.
Brandon is a ninja.
I wanna drink.
I wanna get high.
I wanna smoke.
I wanna forget about everything else in life, except for myself and a few chosen ones.
I'm about to fall asleep.
I hope the person who repeatedly posts irrelevant comments in my LJ comes forward, or they're gonna be the victim of a beatdown.
I hope it's not a female.
I love YOU more. :)

Leave some comment. Especially the anonymous one.

A7X - Bat Country
"I'm starting to get an attraction..."

bigbear04 @ 2005-10-06T09:34:00

2005-10-06T13:35:36Z

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bigbear04 @ 2005-09-28T16:30:00

2005-09-28T20:32:01Z

So anyway.

Here's an update, no song, none needed.

The people who matter don't anymore.

So as far as i'm concerned, this is the end.

bigbear04 @ 2005-09-15T19:42:00

2005-09-15T23:43:33Z

I forget when words were only words
she knows the party makes me nervous
in this stage we can't get hurt
don't try to understand me

we're too cool to be alone
but, not too crazy to get busted

I found out one life just ain't enough
I need another soul to feed on
I'm the flame I can't get burnt
I'm wholly understated

I found silence in this place
an on and off again attraction
I need such amazing grace
heaven sweep me away

Love don't change, don't come around here
don't wear my heart on your sleeve
like a high school letter
don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it
and the people we've become, well
they've never been the people who we are

I strap on one horse and prayed for luck
I dug another hole to bleed
I know exactly how this works
I need a new feel dirty

I don't need you crowding up my space
I just want to get inside you
you can't believe the heart you save
giving something away

Love don't change, don't come around here
don't wear my heart on your sleeve
like a high school letter
don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it
and the people we've become, well
they've never been the people who we are

Don't change, don't come around here
Don't mistake this for something more
For something better.
Don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it.
and the people we become, well
they've never been the people who we are.

I dreamed that the world was crumbling down
we sat on my back porch and watched it
(background) Jesus is knocking on the door of your heart, eh?
I dreamed that the buildings all fell down
we sat on my back porch and watched it
yeah well i dreamed that the world was crumbling down
we sat on my back porch and watched
in my head I heard the sound
like fifteen strangers dancing

but oh how I want you to know me
oh how I want you to know me
oh how I wish I was somebody else, baby
oh how I wish you could own me

Love don't change, don't come around here
don't wear my heart on your sleeve
like a high school letter
don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it
and the people we've become, well
they've never been the people who we are

Love don't change, don't come around here
don't wear my heart on your sleeve
like a high school letter
don't strain, cuz nothing ever comes from it
and the people we've become, well
they've never been the people who we are
who we are, who we are

The end.

bigbear04 @ 2005-09-15T11:23:00

2005-09-15T15:24:14Z

Another...for S&G.

Creed - One

Affirmative may be justified
Take from one give to another
The goal is to be unified
Take my hand,be my brother
The payment silenced the masses
Sanctified by oppression
Unity took a backseat
Sliding further into regression

One,oh one
The only way is one
One,oh one
The only way is one

I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world, ya
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try to change my mind, no

Society blind by color
Why hold down one to raise another
Discrimination now on both sides
Seeds of hate blossom further
The world is heading for mutiny
When all we want is unity
We may rise and fall, but in the end
We'll meet our fate together

One,oh one
The only way is one
One,oh one
The only way is one

I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world, ya
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try to change my mind,no

I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world, ya
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try to change my mind,no

(Instrumental)

Ohhhhhhhhh
Oh ya
Ohhhhhhhhh
Oh ya

I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world, ya
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try to change my mind,no

I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world, ya
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try to change my mind,no

bigbear04 @ 2005-09-15T09:30:00

2005-09-15T13:33:49Z

I'm posting two songs today. Because I want to.

Nickelback - Cowboy Hat

Yes he wore a cowboy hat
Each bone broken in his back
All the money and all the gold
Couldn't buy my love at 8 years old
Now I'm in love with a girl thats wrong for me
Ask her, she will disagree
Her father was a small time man
With small time dreams and small time hands
But I was there when there was nobody home
Please believe me when i say i dunno
Gone for good in fact but what does it mean
Within a year they always sold and bought

Easy enough to just look at her
Whole world on a silver platter
Was that that bad for me
If I was there the scotch is free
Won round one but its not over
He don't care cause he don't know her
True love is not the same
If I could lend a hand in shame

But I was there when there was nobody home
Please believe me when i say i dunno
Gone for good infact but what does it mean
Within a year they always sold and bought

If I was big
So much easier to see
Don't hide from me
That which I've already seen
You lie to me
More than occasionally
Don't lie to me
You lied to me

I'm as high as I'll ever be
I don't mind, Stay and see
They've all gone, Why don't we
Holding hands, you and me
But I'm as high as i'll ever be
But later on, lies to see
My past is gone, only from me
I'm alive

But I was there when there was nobody home
Please believe me when I say I dunno
Gone for good infact but what does it mean
Within a year they always sold and bought

Remember when it was me
Driving come down just for me
And then we'll try as we've been

Three Dog Night - One

One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Two can be as bad as one
It's the loneliest number since the number one

"No" is the saddest experience you'll ever know
Yes, it's the saddest experience you'll ever know
'Cause one is the loneliest number that you'll ever use
One is the loneliest number, whoa, worse than two

It's just no good anymore since you went away
Now I spend my time just making rhymes of yesterday
One is the loneliest number
One is the loneliest number
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
One is the loneliest, one is the loneliest
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do

It's just no good anymore since you went away

Number
One is the loneliest
Number
One is the loneliest
Number
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do

Keep the guesses coming.

Music is Life.

2005-09-14T23:32:24Z

311 - Creatures (For a While)

My name is Volatile
I've been this way a long while
I'd surely like to rest
But the energy gets the best of me
It's been a wild ride
I wouldn't change a minute
I can't slow down inside
Guess that's why I live it

The years of mischief
followed by the weeks of thrift
I land on earth's hard face
No legs could keep that pace
And through the rest I sift

Is there ever a time
When the state of sleeping
Willingly leaves my mind

Highly frustrated wanna feel elated
Come monday morn you feel checkmated
You can be uncool and become the rule
Exceptions were made to drown

I'm not use to it, you'd think i'd be by now
The ins, the outs the ups and the downs

I wanna make a mess
I wanna blow off stress
I wanna stoke the fire
Just creatures for a while

I wanna make a mess
I wanna blow off stress
I wanna stoke the fire
Just creatures, just creatures

It comes and goes it comes and goes
Sometimes I go a little crazy
Sometimes I go a little crazy just like you I do

I know what you where gonna say
But were afraid to cause dismay
You're lyrics switched around
The mixtured watered down
And now a pointless display

Its something one won't understand
Unless the're in it with me hand and hand

Don't buy the fear don't buy that my dear
The things you love you must keep near and
Carry on and on and you won't feel withdrawn
Even if you are comming down

Sometimes it's wearable sometimes its bearable
I careen towards balance til' the glass is full

I wanna make a mess
I wanna blow off stres
I wanna stoke the fire
Just creatures for a while

I wanna make a mess
I wanna blow off stress
I wanna stoke the fire
Just creatures, just creatures

It comes and goes it comes and goes
Sometimes
Sometimes I get a little out there
Sometimes I go off
Sometimes just like you

I go a little crazy
Sometimes I go a little crazy just
Like you I do
Sometimes I go a little crazy
Sometimes I go a little crazy just like you I do

It's GUESSIN TIME!

bigbear04 @ 2005-09-08T09:39:00

2005-09-08T13:48:50Z

Since I don't update that often, and they're usually not true updates, so we're all gonna play a game. I'm gonna post lyrics to a song and then you read them, then you try to predict who or what's on my mind, or what I did that day. Something like that. Or, download the songs and listen to them because they kick ass. Have fun, i'll try to keep a score and post daily but I don't promise anything.

Today's song:

Faith No More - Midlife Crisis

Go on and wring my neck
Like when a rag gets wet
A little discipline
For my pet genius
My head is like a lettuce
Go on and dig your thumbs in
I cannot stop giving
I'm thirty-something
Sense of security
Like pockets jingling
Midlife crisis
Suck ingenuity
Down through the family tree
You're perfect, yes, it's true
But without me you're only you
Your menstruating heart
It ain't bleedin' enough for two
It's a midlife crisis...
What an inheritance
The salt and the Kleenex
Morbid self attention
Bending my pinky back
A little discipline
A donor by habit
A little discipline
Rent an opinion
Sense of security
Holding blunt instrument
Midlife Crisis....
I'm a perfectionist
And perfect is a skinned knee
You're perfect, yes, it's true
But without me you're only you
Your menstruating heart
It ain't bleeding enough for two
It's a midlife crisis...........

bigbear04 @ 2005-08-31T16:42:00

2005-08-31T20:43:33Z

Ok, update.

School started, new work schedule. End of Line.

Not much else, though.

Blah.

Excited but not as much as some people.

I need a break already.

Bye.

bigbear04 @ 2005-06-30T16:08:00

2005-06-30T20:09:37Z

If you still read this, leave a comment. I like to feel wanted.

bigbear04 @ 2005-06-28T11:09:00

2005-06-28T15:10:36Z

Does it make you nervous?

bigbear04 @ 2005-05-31T11:27:00

2005-05-31T15:32:48Z

"Soggies suck

I was sitting up at night
I was feeling so uptight
I was just fucking around
There was something dragging me down

Thinking of a bite to eat
Thought this would be really neat
Cheerios are stale that's beat
But Captain Crunch is fun to eat

Captain Crunch, Captan Crunch
He's inviting you to munch
Captain Crunch, Captain Crunch
Munch a bunch a munch a munch

Fuck my brain

Scoffing down this yellow wheat
Is making me feel kind of beat
My head is spinning round and round
Now my teeth are turning brown

My face is starting to come apart
From this overdose of starch
I really wish mom wasn't here
I'll have another box of beer

Captain Crunch, Captain Crunch
He's inviting you to munch
Captain Crunch, Captain Crunch
Munch a bunch a munch a munch"

A better update to come! DEMF news and Etcetera.

"Hey man, you wanna roll?"

bigbear04 @ 2005-05-25T10:36:00

2005-05-25T14:43:31Z

Rawr indeed.

Just about time for class.

Let's write what's on the agenda, shall we?

Thursday, May 26: School, then possibly Havana for cigars with JPeer, then sister's Band concert, then Bar Night (Palace Gardens, Dort Hwy and Hemphill, and you're all invited)

Friday, May 27: Just hangin' around, until working prom at 4

Saturday, May 28: No Philosophy of Religion class (whee!), laundry, mowing the lawn, calling grandparents about mowing their lawn (easy money! yay!) then working prom at 4

Sunday, May 29: Detroit Electronic Music Festival Noon - Midnight (12 HOURS OF TECHNO!) If you wanna come, let me know and we'll figure something out.

Monday, May 30: Detroit Electronic Music Festival Noon - Midnight (12 MORE HOURS OF TECHNO!) Might not be going, because of other possible plans...

Next week Tuesday - Saturday: School, work, repeat. Grr.

That's about it, it's class time!

And sorry Mags for not caring too much about your grandma, because sick people are depressing, but also, I don't know her well. Hope she gets better soon though.

Let's leave with a little SCIENCE:

Making two possibilities a reality,
Predicting the future of things we all know,
Fighting off the diseased programming
Of centuries, centuries, centuries, centuries.

Science fails to recognize the single most
Potent element of human existence
letting the reigns go to the unfolding
Is faith, faith, faith, faith.

Science has failed our world
Science has failed our Mother Earth.

Science fails to recognize the single most
Potent element of human existence
letting the reigns go to the unfolding
Is faith, faith, faith, faith.

Science! has failed our world
Science! has failed our Mother Earth.
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things,
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things.

letting the reigns go to the unfolding
Is faith, faith, faith, faith
letting the reigns go to the unfolding
Is faith, faith, faith, faith.

Science! has failed our world
Science! has failed our Mother Earth.

Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things,
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things,
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Spirit-moves-through-all-things
Science has failed our Mother Earth.

Peace.

bigbear04 @ 2005-05-23T10:12:00

2005-05-23T14:16:56Z

Ahh, life.

That's all for now.

People need to stay out of others' business, because:

1. It has the potentiality to break trust.
2. They don't know the whole story.
3. They're assholes.

Why don't we all just get along?

PRESSURE!

2005-05-20T17:57:54Z

OK, I've been pressured into writing again. Well not really but sort of.

I just got over a week-long bout with viral strep throat, which was disgusting because i had these "WHITE AND YELLOWISH PUS-FILLED SACS" on the back of my throat. I gagged alot. And mucus. OH THE MUCUS!

I couldn't talk, and that was a travesty. At least I missed a day of work. Recently, I've been addicted to acoustic music artists (Ben Harper, Jack Johnson, Damien Rice, etc) for no apparent reason. It's all good happy music and everyone should like it. Plus Jack looks like Jeff Corwin on the Animal Planet, but he's more tan and he used to be a professional surfer or something. Oh well, it's good music, and even better videos. Check out "Sitting, Waiting, Wishing" or "Taylor" or "Flake". All good.

I'm supposed to be writing my paper for my Philosophy of Religion class that debates the simultaneous existence of creation and evolution. Which is totally probable.

~ Discussion that I would like people to comment on ~

Let's all assume that there's a God. "He" has a sense of humor. He creates humans with inquisitive nature. He also creates a past, and forces some monkeys to turn into humans eventually. Because, i've always said that if evolution was totally 100% true, then why are there still monkeys? Think about that one...

Anyway. So God is laughing at us right now because he IS BOTH CREATION AND EVOLUTION. He created evolution. It's probable isn't it? I mean, how'd the platypus get here? That's a funny creature.

But God gives us this inquisitive nature then disappears so we can only wonder where we came from, and of course the only evidence we can find of previous existence is not of the first humans Adam and Eve, but of Australopithecus. Because God goes invisible. When He comes back he's gonna be laughing his ass off.

~ End of Discussion, please comment and we will continue ~

Stuff to think about eh.

That class is such a waste, though. All I do is play video games and I look up ever so often. At least we get breaks, it's a 5-hour class, and last time my sore throat was just starting to get horrible so I was spraying Chloraseptic down my throat every 5 seconds and it tasted like green medicine ass. In retrospect, I should have gotten the cherry.

And the throat isn't totally gone yet, so smoking is out of the question. Speaking of smoking, I don't smoke cigarettes, only cigars, because cigarettes are like air, and they taste and smell horrible. You can't POSSIBLY say a cigar smells bad compared to a cigarette. Come ask me and i'll smoke a C.A.O. - Moontrance for you, and you will think you stepped into a fruit infused with alcohol and vanilla. It's fantastic. The best. But I digress, because I know it gives me mouth/throat cancer. Whatever, caught early that can be cut out and who needs a throat anyway...well except my girlfriend...;) <3

Since I have to leave in an hour and a half, still need to shower, and clean up stuff, and eat, and finish my paper, i'll quit now. Here's the long-awaited update, and i'll probably have more eventually. Just bug me on AIM or Yahoo if you want one. Or email me or something. Heres teh info.

AIM: Asdeon04
Yahoo: asdeonthedemon
Email: mabaier@umflint.edu

Keep it unreal.